There are people for whom life always goes easily. Until I was thirty, I was one of those people. Then, after that first miscarriage, I realized I had passed through a door onto the other side, a magic door. Now I'm with all those people who suffer, who grieve, who cannot make life run along the lines they'd prefer.

　　Ms. Lu has been pregnant twice before, but because of her career, she gave them up. When she and her husband intend to have a baby, they suffered a recurrent miscarriage. “I became pregnant in 1993, and the baby was expected early the next year. But I miscarried at the third month. We were surprised because everything had seemed so normal.” Lu thought that it need not to worried because she is still young and it will be fine the next time. But unfortunately, she miscarried again two years later, suffering from the same trouble as last pregnancy, the fetus stopped to develop. “There must be some reasons for what happened to us, I think, so we became very careful to have a baby. That is five years later when I get pregnant again. During the five years, I have had much Chinese medicine as well as western medicine. With the combination of the both, I am convinced that it could be a good result.” What is the consequence? At the 8th week, when the fetal heart can be found, she went to the hospital to receive examination, but again, a bad news. “I don’t know why this happen, both my husband and I are in good health.”