Staying  quietly  in  the  bed , I  can't  help  feeling  scared . As  a  patient  Just  restored  to  health , when  starting  my  first  makes love the experience , I  am extremely  afraid  that  it  is  of  great  ache  at  the  enters time ,  just  like such which I hear frequently .However , I  still   lie down  enjoying his caress on the bed obediently,  sucking in his breath  greedily . Anxious looks greedily  his  stroking slowly, cautiously is tidying up the worry which and the fear how can also'tlay down. He the gentle appearance has unloaded on my face the dignified expression . I have closed tightly the tooth  and closed  the mouth, willing not dare to make noise.  I am afraid me to call loudly, to fear very much could have the flash ache to expose my all secrets. Henceforth, falls into the prisoner's cage which cannot escape. But, does not have . Has not had has with enough time enters when the ache feeling then to have the slight friction to comfort me, is bit by bit quick, relaxation slowly. That is comfortable which one kind cannot say, as if must arrive at the heaven. Without in the imagination ache, I have laid down the worry. Starts to want to enclasp him, keeps this paradise him, only listens attentively to us to interweave in the same place respite sound and the moan. When our little close high tide time , I also start not to be able to stop want to call , wants to take again. Remembered that day our time, does not know exhaustedly. I first time, cannot bear want to cry, for my happy feeling. When we stopped finally down have enclasped each other, was listening to his breath, in most drew close to heart's place, this life, cannot again the disappointment. Afterward in he cherished has asked his feeling, willful asked that he could be very comfortable, his lips as if should be the best reply. Actually I knew that he is satisfied, although I am that anxious. Had the happy beginning end, the end point certainly also will have that the grandest ceremony . One month, really is only one month later, after just reexamined trades the fungus, the life henceforth had the new beginning. Perhaps, will have hurts little, only remembered that anxiety and the excitement then, I have forgotten all, only will be that mood and the comfortable feeling actually lets me not be able to bear the recollection, secretly will smile makes noise.